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AVN is by far the adult industry’s biggest award show, and it’s considered one a true honor to be nominated.
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Immediately upon arrival, Stormy and I got to chatting about the red carpet at the AVN awards a couple months prior.
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Trying to actively avoid being the character projected upon me had become tiring. The hardest part of being in the industry is the way people outside the business perceive you. But at this moment in time, I felt the real issue was internalized misogyny. I had even complained about how the misunderstanding of the adult industry wore on me. I had heard this sentiment repeated many times by fellow performers and by creatives in the industry. The makeup artist kept talking about how the stigma of porn stopped her from meeting eligible men. Hair and makeup, or “glam,” can take anywhere from an hour to two hours, and you want to be a blank canvas so that the artist can do their job. I packed for set that day with lots of cute wardrobe options and made sure to have a fresh face for hair and makeup application. Sure, I had signed autographs at the same booth at conventions as Stormy Daniels, danced at the same strip clubs, and I had even chatted with her multiple times, but for her to cast me as the main actress with lot of lines in her project was a milestone. When Devon told me about the role, I tried to play it cool because I didn’t want to appear starstruck or shocked that she had booked me, but actually, I was both. I thought, Wow, what a bad-ass boss! as I watched her on my couch. In high school, she was the first adult film star I had seen in a documentary on television. Stormy was a performer, contract star, director, model, and mother. To have the legendary Stormy Daniels direct the movie was even better. Being the lead in a Wicked Pictures film was a big deal to me, as these roles were often reserved for their contract stars. “Tasha, Stormy would like to book you for November 15 and 16 as the lead in her new comedic movie, The Set Up.” Butterflies fluttered in my belly and excitement ran through my head. It shows the type of person he is: stubborn. Devon has lived here in Los Angeles for thirty-plus years, and the fact he never lost his English accent is telling. It either meant my agent had booked me for a photo or video shoot… or that he needed to discuss something he was upset with or confused about. Please call me.” I received semiregular texts like this that sent chills through my body.